Lost and can’t find my way back. So many disappoints to me just feel like my mind has no place to just cry and feel like I have no one to love n just so lost here. Just want some peace of mind or just that one person to see that plain in my eyes and just say I am here. Just something 💔😢

We look at the world n see that we can change something about our self. Well for me I am going to do my best at the world n just keep a positive attitude toward people, but at times it can be hard cuz so many people hate about how I look and how I talk or just hate me cuz of what I did to someone, that was in the pass. So now I am just going to keep myself to me n just not say anything n just keep on going with my whole life n live like I can live once.

Well the lord is on my side yeah I have the ups n downs in my life. But yeah after watching the fireproof I think that my life is going to change now. I have the lord with me n the faith is with me on my side. Yeah I think that there is someone out n yeah lord has one for me. N I hope he is the one that will keep me.

This day was the best day with a guy that I am talking to. He make me so happy n every day I love him more n more. I feel like he is my prince charming he is the only one that makes me so happy when I see him or just a message that makes me so happy. Or even a call in the morning. He is the only that i can be myself around him. I can laugh n love him to every night m day. We both understands each other n we can both have fun. Yes he know how to makes me happy. He is a keeper to the very last min.

I can’t believe is going to be march already, it feel just like yesterday I was saying good bye to the best grandparents in the world in my in my eyes. But now it’s like I miss them n I miss taking to them n just the little thing they did for me. I feel lost n depressed every day that I can’t say hi or I love you. I feel like I lost something that means the world to me n I can’t get them back. At night I lay in my bed think how could they both leave us n why can’t they take me.. I feel that I will never be complete any more I felt like u lost my other half of my heart once you left me. I feel like I can’t love any more once you left the world. N then I do n then it stops. Why can’t I see that you have a plan for me, but it’s just so hard to see that. I just miss that you guys r not here any more. I just want to see you again n say I love you grandma n grandpa. N please watch over me n give me cougars I need to drive though any thing. Right now I have thing to go far any more. I just feel lost n sad .

All I can say is this how come you like someone so much n then they go see someone that really doesn’t make that person happy, n then that person that know you n makes you happy is the one that is sad n not that person self. Umm it makes you think. O well it’s times likes this you see if that person is really there.

Comes in time that you have to face that life’s comes n goes so yeah you will be sad n alone but then you think of the good times in life n be the ones that can say that we love the moments that we have in life.

Well the time has came to the part of me to change in this life of mine. Like school keep up n my new life of being with my family n taking care of my grandpa. With this said I look at life very different just like only going out on the weekend n spend every hour with my grandpa yeah it will take a big part of my life but we all need each other, it like family lives forever friend come n go so stick with the family. Yeah I have learn that life is to short to look for that guy let him find you n just keep up my head up n look at life as it can go in a min. So I am going to keep that in mind n just live my life. N keep my eyes n hear open. Keep in dream that I have my family here n that I am the most stronger woman that I will ever be.

I think it weird that a guy that say done with you comes and say let watch a movie n hang out what does this mean??? Well I am lost here and have no clue what it means. So if everything goes right I might see this person at a hangout stop that everyone goes too. So right now I am lost but I have to say is that I do like this guy but idk how he feel. So I am going to keep on hold back and just try to make it the best. It really funny to me. And it really weird too.